The past few weeks have been very busy. We welcomed our first granddaughter. She is a true blessing. Plus a nice addition to the 2 granboys we have. She rounds out our family very nicely. Moma and baby are both doing wonderfully.
You would think with this new adorable addition to our family. That I would be bubbling over with excitement, with no down days. Even though I’m excited about her arrival. Things have not be peachy for me. The blessing of her arrival is the only thing that has gotten me threw this far.
This fact, has me seriously wondering what is going on with me? Since the beginning of the year. I’ve been fighting against a big dark blanket that is covering my whole life. Of curse I’ve done the things you are suppose to do when you feel this way. I’ve seen a therapist and talked threw a lot of issues. I’ve done the work that needed to be done. I’ve been on meds for many years now. Under a doctors supervision. And everything has been fine until now. So what is going on? No matter how hard I try I cant shake off this wet blanket that has taken over my life. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only person that is or has been threw this phase in life. Witch is why I’m blogging about how I’m feeling. I’ve never been an “Ole pity me” person. I’m hoping that someone will read this and know they are not alone in how they feel. Plus hoping to hear from some who have been threw it with, helpful suggestions to work threw this phase. All I want is to work threw this phase and put it behind me with the lesson learned. To find the person I use to be. Happy, ready to take on the world. Spreading cheer and positive energy to everyone around me.
All the doctors tell me, I’m healthier then most 42 years they see. And that it isn’t anything medical that is causing me to feel this way. I’ve researched mid-life crisis, hormone flux, everything that I can think of. Some of the things dealing with mid-life crises fit. But really enough to say that is the issues.
Looking for any positive advice from others that have been threw this. And to let the ones going threw this same thing, know they are not alone. Plus it isn’t as dark as it seems like.